So recently i have become a little depressed. Why you might ask well with moving from A-Town was really hard on me i spent all my years in that shit hole but i love it to death....but the thing that really got me was not being able to be on the F.D. anymore. What i miss the most was the smell comming through the front door and the sound of the desil engines running. I also miss my crew that have worked with since the age of 16. I can't help being depressed its something that everyone goes through at least once.

It hurts me inside not going to the 1st and 3rd wensday night traning i miss doing my public duty and helping people when they are in need. I know maybe some of you might understand and some of you might not but to me that department was the world to me the door was always open a not matter what i was always welcome there.

i know hopefully will get back into the truck but untill then me and my heart weep.